My New Normal
Horseback riding was the one thing that made me feel whole. Nothing felt as good as the high of competing on a horse, winning the blue ribbon, and the work and sweat that went into preparing. This was my absolute passion. Nothing was going to hold me back. Nothing.
Then it all came to an abrupt end on a snowy day in New Hampshire. A devastating car crash left me in a coma for two months. I suffered a traumatic brain injury… I was left with a new normal.
I never imagined a future without horseback riding. I was just 17, looking ahead at my life of competing. I had always thought of myself being in a horse show ring.
I never imagined I might someday turn my suffering into something of value; something that created a sense of hope, there is an answer. I have figured out a way to give people inspiration by speaking of my tumultuous journey to recovery.
Along the way I learned that I had to accept my head injury. I befriended my traumatic brain injury and I have come to appreciate it as a part of who I am. I am very grateful for the person that my trauma has created and I have discovered new ways to enjoy more healing and better tomorrows.
Being comfortable with “what is” and “who I am” allowed me to let go of my dreams lost. When I honestly looked at my new normal, the door to new possibilities opened.
Throughout my healing process, I have learned that, what is can be painful, but it is the birthplace for healing and love. I know now that real love, with true compassion and forgiveness, is a true healer. I practice self-care, which puts wellness into my own hands.
It’s about giving myself love through diet, exercise, letting go of toxic people and, spiritual meditation for myself.
I am still trying to trust my inner-wisdom to lead the way in my work, life and wellness.
This is still a work in progress, but trusting myself has become so much stronger, which has made my days richer. I am filled with appreciation for everyone in my life, past and present.
I have created a New Normal for myself.
